As 2023 comes to an end; I start thinking of a word for next year. Usually I say this sort of phrase, but right now I feel very strongly about this word. Let me tell you why..
As I sit down to write this, with my decaf nespresso, one kiddo napping, and the other on his tablet. All I’ve prayed for the past couple weeks is change. A change in pace, change in finances, change in routine. While change is scary and I do not always like change. I am embracing this next change with an open heart. I can feel that whatever this change is, will be a huge opportunity for my family, for me.
I think the hardest part of change is being able to see past what you are feeling now. Yes, it’s scary and yes it’s hard. But keep that vision in front of that. Journal about the fears and write how you can get past them. A lot of my fears are my kids. How can I be there for my kids and pursue this shift? How can I show up for them and for me? When I journaled on this the answer was simple; schedule the day better. Start a log of what you do with your time. Are you being strategic with time? It really made me open my eyes to what is possible. Journaling has been an outlet to drop all my questions, fears, emotions and yet a way for me to answer them.
When I look at my life a year from now; I see a family who enjoys time together. A father who is happy to come home after a long day of work, kids who’ve played, had meals, spent time with their mom during the day, and a mother who was happy to do all the things and have a successful business while keeping herself happy from burnout.
While I want that to happen right now. I have to be happy where I am first. I am grateful, happy and blessed with; a roof over my family’s head, food that fuels us, clothing that dresses us, beds and bedding that keeps us warm, water for showers/ baths, strong coffee for the early mornings, and so much more. But I am also open to the change that is to come, the blessings that it will bring us. Change doesn’t happen overnight, it’ll be a constant trial and error path, changing, pivoting, embracing the change, feeling the change, and being able to let what is changing go.
I am so excited, grateful, and blessed for all the change that is about to come.
